The Pledge

Sallow, as if someone was missing her. 
The reason she existed, perhaps.
And they were many.
Their question was: "Do you recall?".
But she kept on forgetting. And while the others, were departing.
She stayed grounded either dreaming,
 or with visions of upcoming nightmares.
 In each awakened expansion, rainstorm cabled on thy's windows, 
fired carbon from her lushes.
And the  lesart she carried 
-who knows from which dessert- 
crawled up on her shoulder, and was staring the distance in silence.

I started once to tell her to stay present, but she was gone already. 
And from my phrase, she heard the half.

''By kings, I've been served. 
In an entertainers' dressing room, I was waiting for the dawn. 
 I've got drunk with alcohol, 
and with other stuff got high.
And I leaned over,
 like the shadows are leaning in the West, but never fell
I've been pulled aside by men, drifted from my scent.
But I was looking elsewhere, without talking.
And always, in the end, they were departing.
Keeping memories of someone else, 
who was not me.
Where am I, when my fear puts my clothes on,
and pushes me out in the alley?
Where am I, when I lean down to listen to the stories of the ants,
pretending that I care?
Once, I was dancing secretly, in my own special way..''

Each time I was approaching her,
My head was numb and my cores
were expanding. As if I've been dropped
into the Ocean, in search of salt.
I was searching on her body for marks and traces
 but they were changing.
- A constellation on her shoulder towards her arm.
- Peels from flower stalk at the base of the spine,
that quickly turned into conjugating snakes.
-lips changing color when it rained, like the rainbow.
And it was raining frequently inside her dorms.

''this body is not the compound of water and carbon,
but the remnants from Angel's orgasms''

Last time I saw her in an old photograph
Ten - eleven years old.
Dressed in white, like a bright.
She was gazing at me, pledging that one day she
would meet me. And that our coupling,
would've last from dusk till dawn.
And in the end, I would abrogate the crawling mob,
dragged behind her gait.

-Promise me this is For Ever?

-I Promise...